.. without wearing any mask we are conscious of, we have a special face for each friend

.. how much could you be a friend to anyone? And how would you be able to call anyone your friend? How would you ever draw that line that borders the limitations ?

.. having one friend is too much, two are many, and three is hardly possible. How many of you would actually agree to this? The definition of friends is lost altogether as our commitments grew, and as our age matures. We we're so innocent once in our younger years, everyone is a good friend. We go out in packs, sharing every single thoughts and emotions. But all would be almost lost as we pursue our own interests, chasing dreams and life goals, leaving behind nothing but memories of our younger years, and not friendship that holds strong.

.. having friends is where you be what you are, but how often would you be able to do that once you step into the competitive working "adult" world, in short reality and survival. At one point of your life, the basic survival instincts would take over, causing us to be more selfish, and making friends are only for beneficial means. We wear a mask, for each and every different friend, fitting ourselves into their world, manipulating them for our own gains.

.. a lot might not agree to this, and what i said is purely my own views. I have been meeting people all over the place, and as sales, i really need to get into their heads to maneuver them into profitable gains. To do that, i would have to be someone else, a mask worn without being conscious of it, referring my self as a "friend", totally losing myself, not being able to be what i want to be, or used to be.

.. it has been such a daily routine to me, i do not get much chance to just let go and be myself. There is a few that i am able to share with and open up, but to what extent would they be able to share the same with me ? Where would be the line be drawn by them ?

.. i have been trying to follow a path which leads me to a mental attitude that makes me feel deeply and vitally alive, which i am able to say to myself everyday,

" .. this is the real me."

.. but to what extent?

.. would i be able to stay true to that path,
and still be able to survive the competition?