.. if i fall asleep with a pen in my hand, please do not remove it, i might be writing in my dreams

.. ahh, yes, a passion of mine left unexplored for quite some time, i used to love writing a lot. Often, combining my poems with illustrations of own and printing it out on those nice glossy paper. I have left it aside for quite some time, as work and normal daily routines has taken precedence.

.. with the start of a new life in Vietnam, i guess it is due time i explore what i enjoy doing most again. I hate to be controlled by majority, when i have to be adapt myself to others. True enough, it is a give and take situation, but my main concern, how much would others adapt their likings to me ?

.. how often would you find a guy who enjoys and talk about writing, cooking, movie appreciation (a lot of my friends can't even remember Shawshank Redemption), listen to Pulp, Suede .. etc etc .. they only talk about girls, cars, gadgets .. endless list of totally unproductive and uninformative conversation pieces (i'm sorry to my close friends who reads this, but since i am in Vietnam now, unless you all come over to give me a smack on the head, i am still in, all ways a friend, and you know by any means we would always have something to talk about which interests me, what i've said are written in general.)

.. my only resort, is to have my thoughts here on my blog. Sometimes, contents i have here might look and sound like crap, but those are just my thoughts. I don't spend a lot of time planning the whole content out. I just write as i please. This piece i am writing now, only took 10 minutes up till this point.

.. i have plans to have a major re vamp on my blog, adding more personalized graphics inside, which would really reflect my mood and what i visualize in my dreams and thoughts everyday.

.. i guess, i am going to have pleasurable time for my new life in Vietnam. Friends are being made everyday and soon enough i would finally have freedom given to me thoroughly once i move to Saigon. Freedom is not a word i would eagerly use, as i have not have this feeling for a very long time already. Decisions, actions, and basically everything else that i have done so far, has external factors influencing it. For once in my life, i feel the heavy shroud blackness that had been blocking my true self clears away.

.. this would be the very first confession i have made since i come over to Vietnam. No offense to my ex, i've enjoyed every single moment i spent with you for the past five years. I was distraught when our separation happened, but for reasons only both of us know, it is for the greater good. When i said freedom is finally mine, it is not because you had withheld my dreams, you were once part of it, and i have all freedom when i was with you. My life had always been great with you, and the freedom i have now, is freedom to explore more of my personal interests and pursue of my dreams.

.. i wish all the best to your personal interests as well and i do wish we remain as close as we were earlier. I hope you understand my trip to Vietnam is solely for career advancements and the decision was made not because of our separation (well, maybe a small portion, cause i don't have commitments now except to my family), but don't take it too badly. I am sorry, if in any way, i have left you distraught, it is a mistake for me to solely bear responsibility of.

.. i guess that would be enough said before i put myself in misery again. I have finally got over my fear of facing reality with what i have said above, and i do wish the same for you too.

.. a new chapter has begun in my life

.. a new story awaits to be written down